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Where my manic episode mostly ended lol. What can I say, I think I'd be a good dictator.
Just leaning into it lol. I get manic epsidoes, okay? Still want to be a cult leader...
I got on new meds and holy shit have I changed for the better! Insane! I'm leaning into my crazy because I love her. This site is part of that. I started really leaning into my political self which I love. I want to post a whole political page! I legit love politics and economics
My second favorite video! Probably my funniest! I loved it so much, I always wanted it to do better than it did.
Depression got worse, fewer videos, this was one of the few that made the cute. We had a blast :)
Omfg I spent so much time making this. I actually recorded around 12 hours and this was one of the earlier takes because I did a lot of small segment practice and once I had it "down" it was bed time and my voice was fucked the next day. Still, had a GREAT time making this.
My first video that did really well! Ever since then I have suffered in it's shadow lol. But forreal it was so good! I had such a good time! We've made three others but they all got fucked up for one reason or another :/
This was so fun! I regret not editing it more. I could've done way better with scripting and timing and adding pics. Maybe I'll go back and redo it! With the news meds I have the patience for that sort of stuff now.
Another voice challenge! Not a fan lol. I wasn't super into this one! Depression, of course. Hello again, old friend.
My first video after Angel passed! As you can see I disappeared for a while. I needed to. I was very sad. I'm better now! Tho doing this isn't helping I'll be okay once I'm done :)
Probably my favorite video, if it only helps one person, ya know? It felt good for me to share, like I was fulfilling my duty. Idk.
The voices killed me on this one! I miss Angel. I gotta move on it's making me sad lol.
Oh what a fun one, I had such a good time with Angel during this one!
I was really depressed at the time, okay? lol. Pre and post anti-depressants Shady are two totally different people, I needed help helping myself along to do the most basic of tasks. I'm a lot better now :)
My first Brothers Grimm video! I always thought these would do better than they did. But whatever! I had fun making them!
This is one of those videos I posted just to keep me posting. It's hard for me to get back into things once I start them, so in this way I sorta kept it going by posting this. I know, I'm a lot to deal with.
I put so much work into this! It was my second video and I learned so much and had such a blast making it. I was always bummed it didn't get more popular because I loved making it so much, I thought I was hilarious. Still do, in fact lol.
My first YouTube video! I was just having a bit of a mental breakdown/freakout and needed to let off some steam!